It’s just an another story !
It was something that I had known from a long time, but, was acting like I am so unknown .
I cried the night before , after the fight that I had with my parents . But, that was not a big fight which made me cry. Something , it was like a whisper telling me “If you really want to transform , you must cry your heart out. I don’t know why ,but, I did listen the inner whisper and I locked myself in the bathroom and cried. I stayed up there for few minutes and I cried the entire time. After that I felt so light, it was like something inside me changed, something did happen which made me smile by seeing the red nose and those red puffy eyes. I dared to see myself at the mirror and then I said it is over. It has finally started and I have got your back in each and every cases.
I went to sleep that night, but, as you can guess , I could not sleep at all. I tried my best to sleep ,but, I successfully failed . Then , I remembered someone very important , someone to whom I abandoned a long time ago, someone who was my everything .
It was my diary. I had even named it as “Stef”. It was my first friend, a fried who never left me , a friend who always listened to whatever I had to say , who never lied to me and the only one who loved me as for me. I took out my journey and began writing , that was the moment when I smiled after a long time. I felt so safe and secure , I felt like “yes, I can do everything!.” Just the presence was enough. I even wrote a promise letter where I promised to be a better version of myself , where I promised to read books which helps me at my best, where I promised to be my self-guide again and where I promised to start my new journey again.
And, I am so glad that I made a decision , and moved on. Yes, I am struggling everyday , but, I have not given up. I am always there whispering positive affirmations to myself , watching funny videos which makes me live my childhood again. It’s just we are so engrossed and totally into the material world that we forgot what made us who we are. We have totally forgot to enjoy and be happy at little things. We have forgot what are the things and what are the moments that makes us as we. Yes, I am following my words, and whenever i feel like i am being deviated, I just have a small conversation with myself , either I write or I type , but, I do it. That’s what has made a big difference in my life.
Yes, I do agree that everyone reads motivational stuffs, everyone watches such motivational video. But, my friend the motivation , the power of being optimistic , the power of self-love is within us. When we were a child , we didn’t knew the world limitations . For us everything was new, everything was a moment of wow! But, as we grow we forget all those things, we try to accept and practice what other other does or want to reach at the position where the other has reached.
But, just a minute of self conversation is more than enough. It really is helpful , it really is strong, because we all are one of a kind. We all are different and we all can be the Awesome Me !
